sensingwithspirit.com Annielise Stone

The people who are not what they first seem to be.

In all walks of life the human race hides behind a veil of pretence. We all met them and even at times we perhaps ourselves have used this shield to prevent others getting to close. For some it’s to hide a hurt a fear or even because they find it hard to commit.

I myself at times feel that I am a people pleaser I don’t like to say No neither do I like to intentionally upset anyone. Paulo Coelho the other day mentioned on a site that people who say maybe really want to say No but are afraid to commit. I was not sure what I was afraid to commit to but often I don’t or can’t really be bothered to do something and I end up doing it any way. Perhaps it’s the case I should ask will this affect or have an impact if I do or don’t.

This point struck home with me that am probably why I have great respect and admiration not only for him as an author but as a man and mentor too.

I was going though some of my own thoughts in my head I do this occasionally when a link strikes home and I came to the conclusion that some people will tell you anything to get A. A reaction and B. If they feel by humouring you or pretending to be interested in what your doing for self gain. If you’re naive you will think it’s because you are making them think. Now the question here is you may find out that really it was all talk.

Or even that a remark you made and you thought was true they had in fact lied or just left the information hoping you would not ask out right.

So my suggestion are don’t believe what you hear it can an often is watered down or even changed like Chinese whispers. Real friends you know deep down would not let you down.

Read the small print lots of us get caught out by the gift of the gab. The free gift which is not really free Along with the promise of better things to come if you invest now…

If someone you just met asks to borrow money remember your old grannies say never a lender or borrower be.

Trust you gut it never really lets you down.

Don’t rush to do something you’re not sure about unhappy about the result or you would be worried if it turned out bad.

Now to end this on a positive note you have to kiss a few frogs before you find a real prince. That real friends are measure by not what can do for them but what they do for you with out asking. And you can’t make a silk purse out of a sours ear.

Also as another thought dont seem to be to keen to be a part of something or someone only to end up doing all the talking walking working and then resent that you were only a stop gap until they got bored tired or just plain lazy. The interesting people are those who keep something back and do give everything up to fast. To maintain equal partners you first my have equal right and responsibilties.

Annielise Stone 22/6/10

I do plan to write more on the diary of an Inner Child and I still have quite a bit of more information to write up on past lives.

I want the site to be more accessible this year some of the posts need a bit more categorising to make it easier for you to access the different areas you might be interested in.

Again if you have a subject you would like some information on or you want particular information on a subject ask and I see what I can do.I have joined twitter and also started up facebook for those who might like to join me.

annielisestone@sensingwithspirit.com please just let me contact me again so we can keep in touch Thanks.

I also want to let you know that I eventually want my site to be www.annielisestone.com I can also be reached on my uk site www.annielisestone.co.uk

As I originally started out wanting my own site with my own name but I do intend to keep sensingwithspirt too.

I attended a psychic evening last night it was good evening.

The messages that came out for my clients were accurate and very moving.

One lady expressed to me that she had seen many Mediums in the past and she had waited to hear from loved ones and friends. She had previously had conformation of proof of spirit.

She told me that she  had waited for many years to have a message from a particular person or persons.

She in fact was able to take 4 people all who she had desperately wanted to hear from.

She confirmed that no one had ever brought these people through before and that she had spent a long time trying to hear that these people were ok.

It’s on these occasions that I know what I do is truly a gift and I am so very humble to be able to do what I do.

It’s been an amazing week for messages and spirit connections Thank you.

Love and Best wishes Annielise Stone

Continuing the story of the inner child parts one to four can be also found on my website www.sensingwithspirit.com

Thanks Annielise

In previous posts about the Inner Child I have talked how we should try to have a relationship with our own inner child when we ignore her we suddenly find she has a cob and starts either the sulk or the plan to make us feel vulnerable insecure and threatened.

All these things are used by her to UN nerve us and throw us off balance. This leads to a second battle and the one I am talking about is the power struggle not only of your own inner child but even of someone else’s who decided to feed of you and her.

So all of a sudden there are two forces at work your own inner worries and third party of someone else’s personal issues.

Example: You get dragged into someone else’s friction you know it the two other people who have spent many months plotting and scheming against each other who seem to try and build up sides and armies and you trying to do your job suddenly finds yourself either on the end of it or bang right in the middle. They are every where work, college even at home.

You have spent all week trying to avoid situations and just plod along trying not to get on anyone’s nerves and here it is Friday and power struggle explodes. Next your inner child starts I told you so, I said you should not work with these types and you always end up with taking the blame. No only are you trying to work out who these other types are but already your head aches your stressed.

The weekends of to a brilliant start and already your dreading Monday morning for as sure eggs are eggs its some how going to be your fault even though you did your job followed the rules and still some how managed to come out with the dog poo on your shoes and it don’t matter, how many times you wash it off the smell wont go away.

What’s next! You ask yourself do you spend the whole weekend wondering if you going to get pulled in to explain your side and to be honest what side. Why should you even have to explain that you follow the policy laid down the rules and guidelines of!

Again the sun shiners the types it don’t matter what goes down they come up smelling of roses. Will have a fantastic weekend and their gloating Inner Childs have managed not only to have been fed and watered for another week they even have bonus points for upsetting yours.

Limit the damage try to explain to yourself first that your not alone you just feel like it. You’re not the only person in the world who feels that what ever they try to do it always seems to be wrong. Be careful of the sympathetic ear yes we all need to off load but don’t do it to news week again the report will get out of hand and in the end your will find yourself front page news and not for the right reasons.

Chocolate helps along with a nice hot bath play some of your favourite music or watch a good film. Learn to read the signs before they happen. Smile in most situations. The Inner Child loves her chocolate but not too much or we have the sick issues. Next try smiling it confuses people it also makes them wonder if they have actually achieved their goal.

To be honest you may feel like cr… But don’t show it. Suggestion: when in difficult situations answer question with a question.Then say sorry but I haven’t got all the information “Can I get back you Brad?” It gives you breathing space ok on insight you won’t remember it every time but like my old mum used to say for warned is for armed. I am sure she read is somewhere and its someone else famous quote in the end its good advice so have a better week Annielise Stone March 7^th 2010

Intuition guidance a thirst for knowledge, synchronicity

Synchronicity

Chance meetings information and guidance

Synchronicity is the coming together of inner and outer events in a way that cannot be explained by cause and effect and that is meaningful to the observer. — Carl Jung

The Alchemist written by Paulo Coelho, For everyone who believes in following their dreams.

About four to five years ago I met a Brazilian lady in my local sports centre she was on holiday visiting friends. We stuck up a conversation and spoke about the good old British weather and she spoke about her family and other countries she had visited. She was reading a book called Brida written by Paulo Coelho. Her copy was in Spanish so she suggested that I may like another of his books called the Alchemist. I thanked her and said if I got the opportunity I would read the book. A few days later out of the blue a friend rang and said she had been passing a book shop and had seen a book I might be interested in and had brought it because it had literately jumped out at her. I said it would happen to be the Alchemist by Paulo Cohelo yes she said have you already read it. I replied I hadn’t but was looking forward to reading it.

On receiving the book I was immediately drawn to it the simple story of a Shepard boy who lives and works with the sheep he uses books as pillows and dreams like every one of travel and a better life. One night he has a dream about a journey to find the Alchemist and to learn to the skills to make gold. The boys dream is so strong and real that he sets off on a long journey and it’s a story about self discovery and the people he meets along the way.

I read the whole book in a day and then I read it again just because I was so drawn to it. The book has sold over 65 million copies and is written in several languages. The book

Is it a good read yes excellent? I enjoyed his books so much that I now have every book the author had written in English. One of my favourites is Veronica decides to die. Later this year or perhaps early next year they are making a film of it.

Earlier last year I finally got to read Brida as he had it translated into English. The same book that the Brazilian lady had in her bag.

Going back to the Alchemist I found that over the next few years I would meet people who I would recognise as characters from the book., of course they did not have the same names or jobs but they did seem to have the same attitudes.

Ok so whets the Alchemist got to do with me and Synchronicity to me it woke me up to the possibility of all things. That we all have to have a dream to work to and once we get near to the dream to expanded it and make it bigger. I know I don’t want to be the Glass merchant who ever year talks about saving his money and going to Mecca. Dreams are meant to move to change to grow not to stagnate and become a dim light. Like the Shepard boy in the Alchemist I too had a dream that I would come to New Zealand at the time I did not know if it was to be a holiday or to live. I had a job a home and family. I was not in a position just to leave or seriously at the time did I actually think it would come off.

The dreams continued and I watch for signs for coincidences. And slowly over a period of 6 to 18 months I left my home a journeyed to another county to a new town that I knew nothing about because I believed in Synchronicity. I did not want to be the glass merchant I had spent too many years talking about doing something and wanting something that even if long term I find out its not for me at least I have taken the dream expanded it and make it grow.

Now to be honest it’s not been an easy journey and its not all milk and honey. I am human and I have to pay bills and live and to be honest I am not looking for the Alchemist. What I am trying to do is share with others that I could have stayed at home spent some money on a decent car and perhaps some new furniture and paid off a few bills but in my heart I would have always wondered what if.

I have been told that to be in a routine you have to do it for at least 3 weeks that’s the same journey back and forth to work or school visit the same shops and supermarkets clean, wash and cook etc. I can honestly say that my desire to find the Alchemist is as strong as ever not for the gold but for the dream and for the journey to keep expanding my dreams maybe not is such big ways all the time but not to get in a rut or a long term routine ro explore all the options to seek out new ideas visions and thoughts not only mine but others too.To keep learning to teach and to grow.

So a very big thank you to the Brazilian Lady who took the time to share her book with me and also to everyone else who has helped makes my journey interesting exiting and safe. Also thank you to Paulo for his amazing insights to let us all be dreamers.

Please keep writing your wonderful books and stories you reach so many souls.

And who know if Synchronicity is working and part of my journey one day that we might meet then again that would be wonderful too. Thank you Annielise Stone.

It is also said by Deep Chopra; who also has some opinions linked to Synchronicity like Carl Jung. A blurb below describes some of his thoughts.

In Synchrodestiny, Deepak Chopra teaches us to see coincidences as messages about the miraculous potential of each moment. He reveals how, through understanding the forces that shape coincidences, you can learn to live at a deeper level and access the flow of synchronicity that lies at the heart of existence. He writes about `the seven principles of synchrodestiny’ and gives you practical techniques for applying those principles in your everyday life. As you learn to recognise the meaning and pattern behind the things that happen to you, apparently by chance, you will become aware of yourself as a part of the divine flow of existence. In this state of expanded self-awareness, you will experience your environment as always positive, always helping you in a synchronistic way to unfold your highest good. In fact you will know, then, that you inhabit a world in which miracles are a daily occurrence. If many people were able to move into this new state of consciousness, says Deepak Chopra, this would result in the simultaneous co-arising of events that would lead to a completely new world…. a miraculous prospect indeed.

Again these books are available from books shops the publisher is Cygnet.

I have read many books by the author and I can honestly say that each of them carries a Message.

Follow your dreams and look forward to the next adventure.  annielise

The news that shook the world that the King of Pop was Dead.

Loosing Michael has hit the world by storm. We as humans spend most of our time, in our own little bubbles with our own insecurities worries and we rarely think about others unless it affects our way of life, or it becomes a topic of conversation. Through grief we stop and look at ourselves and realise, that perhaps we all can learn a lot from those who have left here but their ENERGY lives on.

I first wrote this article last year when I was approached by a couple of friends what I thought about him. Now months later his music has received a second life. Children as young 10 sing and dance and move to thriller and when given the chance can say what their favourite track is. Like Elvis his Music will be played and remember in new generations to come.

When you hear his music, when you watch his videos or interviews when you see just how much energy he gave that is not going to fade. The physical or hard shell presence is more harder to accept but if you listen hard enough, you do see you, remember you feel. A song comes into your head and its stays there. Our duty is to remember don’t they say “Less we forget”. I really don’t think anyone will.

Michael was our shooting star he was Michael he saw the world through the eyes of a child and for that often was misunderstood and his actions cost him dearly. I ask you look inside yourselves and find your own inner child and reflect.

They say the good die young and the reason often people give is that they try so hard to make others happy that their own needs and wants suffer because of it. I am not saying that he did not make some wrong or difficult choices and that we all live with the fact that we make mistakes. In the end to live a live of Peter perfect and be in a huge bubble or goldfish bowl makes us all a little strange.

I recently watched an old video of a film that Robin Williams portrayed as Jack a boy who was in a rush to get here and he had a condition that his body grew at rate 10 times faster than the average human. At 10 he was portrayed as a man in his late 30’s. This moving film set around the early 1980/90 it showed us that even if we look a little strange its inside that counts. The film brought awareness to the fact that some people bodies grow old and the brain still lives on. The Actor Bill Cosby played Jack’s Tutor and Educator and if you get the chance to see it there are some real humorous parts too.

My point when Jack is at his lowest point he tells him that he is a shooting star and if your lucky enough to see one you see just how beautiful bright and amazing they are.

They give everything they have they shine the brightest and shoot the straightest and explode into the Heavens.

For me and for all you other shooting stars out there to come and to go when you leave as you will explode into the heavens and remember that what you do makes a difference

Remember Michael for his music his love of the planet and his ability to see that our world was suffering long before few or we were prepare to admit.

Keep Shining MICHAEL. Annielise Stone Up dated April 1^st 2010

Over the years I have had many rewarding and magical experiences on my journey. I find sometime that when you least expect things to happen the most wonderful and exciting experiences happen.

A few years back I was visiting a Catholic school my friend had an appointment with the head teacher and I had been to the school on a previous occasion with another a friend who was looking to find a suitable school for her child. So again I had gone along again. I am not a Catholic I say this because the experience or the vision I had was in waiting area in the school.

On with the post my friend had gone in to speak to the head there were other people walking around but most of the time it was just me. I was drawn to a picture of Christ.

As I looked at the picture before me it began to alter first face became child like then of an older man back to the original picture. I watched it for several minutes drawn to the fact that the picture appeared to have an energy life force. In my mind I question it and was told just to watch. Again the picture went through different transformations even down to having a face of baby. The picture was full of love and light and the experience was truly uplifting.

To me I thought what a wonderful way to show that even the simplest miracles happen when you least expect them.

My friend was in the meeting for over 15 minutes the strange thing was no one else walked by and my vision was UN disturbed.

As its Easter Sunday draws closed for another year I thought it was a nice Discussion to add.

Thanks for listening  Annielise Stone

For the people who are with us in body but their minds is some where else. For the families who care for these special people.

This post came about because of what I call Synchronicity. A happen chance of thoughts and ideas. Again I have mention this in previous posts.

In the space of a few days I had several times when this subject was brought to my attention I was asked if I thought that people suffering from Dementia and other illness such as being in a coma etc. Did they A dream and B would appear to be somewhere else. It’s been said that people who have similar conditions at various times are seen to be flickering in and out of life.

I am no doctor and there are probably lots of medical reasons to back up the theory of what appears to be contact. That, I am not discussing what I am suggesting is another theory, which may or may not offer some understanding to our loved ones who care for us when we are in this place.

Yes I believe that people who suffer from illnesses such as Dementia do leave there bodies and travel to times and places where they had created memories from the past. There they found peace and comfort so when viewed by the out side world seemed child like. I also believe this of coma victims and other people who have similar conditions.

The reason behind that thought is that the long term memory stores 1000’s of cells of memory from as far back from the moment of conception. That’s why we have random memories of things that we did when we were 2. Of this can apply to situations that we have had abuse in and it’s safer to shut them down but that’s another thought we can still block out bad memories and that comment I will leave for another time.

Yes I believe that people who suffer from illnesses such as Dementia do leave there bodies and travel to times and places where they had created memories from the past. There they found peace and comfort so when viewed by the out side world seemed child like.

Many years ago I knew and old chap and I helped him and his wife with some shopping and I would sit with him while she went out to her club. He loved to talk of the time of Trams and place called Streatham in London. He would describe every detail to me the colour the smell the amount of people he knew.

He spoke of his job and where he went to work. I sit and trim his hair and he talk after a while he stop and say do I know you and I say yes and he say did I tell you about the time. His long term memory was full of information and it stored such joy for him.

Later as his illness progressed he still went off on his travels but did not talk about them. Out of the body took his memories to another place he just did not have the energy to talk about them he still enjoyed them. Yet for others to watch and see a loved one disappear in front of them that’s another thing entirely. I want perhaps to suggest that if they can find some peace in knowing that they are just visiting an old friend.

To continue,

I watched a film recently and in it I spoke of Robin Williams he played a doctor who worked with people who were in worlds of there own struck down by an illness over a period of time

He used a drug which was in experimental stages and it worked for a while but soon the drug no longer worked it was called the awakening and I have already mentioned it in another post Diary of an inner child part 3. In it I mention that words don’t have to be spoken.

“Communication is not just spoken word it’s a gesture a sign”. By Annielise Stone sensingwithspirit.com

So yes we do find solace in many places. Especially if we have had the chance to have memories to go and see people, places etc.

I do think it’s slightly difference for children who are born with problems and cant communicate in the traditional way.

For them it’s a different way music soft spoken word etc kindness love.

I also believe they have special places to go but this is more child like perhaps filled with music and flowers and kindness they may also remind past lives and go and visit people from them.

I hope this answers your very important question Maria and thank you for raising it. Like I say also applies to people in commas again they travel and are off living a life on another place or dimension. Keep talking keep reading keep listening and it is possible to reach them it’s just done in a different way. Happy Easter Annielise Stone 2^nd April 2010

Below I have posted some directions for people who are interested in find out more information on past lives or reincarnation. This simple exercise is to given you an insight to what you may experience if you decide to go down the pathway. It’s not to replace the dealings of the professional people who train in this type of work.

If you wish to find out more then you can find other information on the web. Thanks Annielise.

The Mediation and preparation for investigating your past lives. Following the continuing chapters on Past lives and reincarnation March 2010

The point of doing this exercise is to delve into your past lives. Unlike a movie, this is always an intensely personal journey that will speak to you on many levels. It will be different for everyone since everyone is unique. When you first start journeying through time, ask to be shown pleasant past life images so you can master the process. I wish you well on your journeys to the inner worlds.

Everyone has the ability to access their own past lives. You can train yourself to access your own past life memories through a past life regression that you conduct on your own at home

BACKGROUND & GOAL

Goal: The goal of this exercise is to allow you to explore your past lives while alone in a safe and pleasant manner

PREPARATION

1> Most people need to do this exercise daily for at least a month before they begin to get anything that is meaningful about their past lives. So you will probably need to have some patience with the process. Yet if you are patient and have a sincere desire to do further past life journeying, you will be successful.

2> Remember to do this process slowly. You must focus on completely relaxing your body and your mind so that images of your past lives can be brought gently into your conscious awareness. Each time you do this

Exercise you will go ever more deeply into yourself. The deeper you go, the more answers you get.

3> Ask for your Higher Self, your Guides, your Guardian angels, and whatever other servants of the universe you like to be present for the entire session and to keep you safe and protected at all times.

4> Being comfortable is the key. You can lie down (recommended) or sit up. If you opt to sit up, you must be supported and feel fully relaxed and comfortable. Be sure to loosen any restrictive clothing

5> Do this exercise in a peaceful place where you will be completely quiet and undisturbed for the entire session when you are fairly well rested (so you will NOT fall asleep). This entire exercise should last for NO longer than 45 minutes. Set an alarm or timer to snap you out of it should the session run longer.

6> Pick a special intention for you past life journey. It could be “what I most need to see”, “what I most need to heal”, or “the explanation for my life’s purpose”, “about a past personality”, or “a special need”.

THE EXERCISE

1> Take some deep, refreshing breaths until you are totally comfortable and relaxed in whatever position you have chosen (it should take you no more than 3 minutes to get comfortable).

2> Close your eyes and envision a golden white ball of healing light. Send that ball of healing light to each part of your body in turn. Start with your feet, go up your calves, over your knees, along your thighs, through you hips and stomach, along your torso, though your chest and heart, along your shoulders, along your arms, to your hands, back up to your neck, and through your head until you are relaxed

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a> Scan your entire body looking for any places that are not relaxed. Immediately send relaxation to any part of your body that is tense. Do that until you are totally relaxed and peaceful.

b> you should be in a place of perfect peace and stillness. Your body should now be filled with beautiful healing light. Take a moment to bask in it: feel its warmth and its safety.

3> Go inside and connect with your inner vision. On the screen of your mind, imagine a closed door at the bottom of a staircase. See yourself walking to the staircase. See yourself slowly walking down the stairs. When you get to the bottom of the stairs, you will see two things.

a> On the LEFT side, there is a very comfortable couch. You will rest on it for a moment while you gather your thoughts about what you want to get from your journey through time

b> On the RIGHT side, there is a door with big red letters on it which say “MY PAST LIVES”. Right now, the door is closed. Behind the door is the gateway to your past lives.

4> While you are sitting or lying on the comfortable couch, let the love of the universe surround you. Know that at all times, you are completely safe and protected by all your guides.

a> If you do not want to go through the door, that is just fine. It does not matter why. Give yourself permission to relax and just enjoy being on the comfortable couch.

b> If you do want to go through the door, rise from the couch and move in front of the door.

5> before starting your journey back through time, you need to declare the following to the universe. This is absolutely necessary to make sure that your past life journey is a safe and pleasant one.

a> “Throughout this journey through my past lives, I am always completely safe and protected.”

b> “I will see, hear, and experience everything about my past lives as if I was watching a movie. Just as a movie cannot harm me, my journey through my past lives cannot harm me.”

c> “I am clear on my intention for my past life journey which is…. (What you prepared above).”

6> Open the door. If the door does NOT open, then the universe is telling you to go back to the couch. If you chose to continue, it is your choice. Just consider that it might be for your own good to stop. When you are ready, go inside the “Past Life Room”. Inside this room, you will see two things

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a> on the wall of the “Past Life Room”, there is a WHITE SCREEN with BLINDS over it that is shut and down.

b> on either side of the white screen are two buttons: one is GREEN and one is RED.

c> On the LEFT, the GREEN button opens the blinds and shows you your past lives.

d> On the RIGHT, the RED button closes the blinds and takes to back to the safe, comfy couch.

7> When the blinds go up, you will see an image of yourself in a past life. This will be the past life that you most need to see or the past life that most closely matches your special intention.

a> Look at yourself in the screen. Once you have a clear view of the individual who was you in a past life say “Action”. The movie of you in this past life will not start rolling until you do so.

b> If you are having difficulty seeing yourself on the Past Life Screen, ask to see the feet of your past life personality. Try to see what it is that you are wearing on your feet. Are they shoes, sandals, boots, or are your feet bare?

c> Once you see your feet, slowly look up to see the rest of you. Once you are in focus, look at yourself on the screen. Take a moment to steady the image, and then say “Action!”

8> Whenever you are ready, press the GREEN button to open the blinds and begin your journey. The first time keep your journey to 20 or 30 minutes. Only go longer once you have had more practice.

9> whenever you feel your journey has ended or if the alarm goes off, it is time to come back. Reach to your right and press the RED button. You will be back at the comfortable couch. Take a few minutes to rest there. Then get up and walk back up the staircase to where you began your journey.

Like a deep sea diver come back up slowly to the surface of your conscious awareness. You have been to a deep place within you and you must readjust to your normal waking state.

The point of doing this exercise is to delve into your past lives. Unlike a movie, this is always an intensely personal journey that will speak to you on many levels. It will be different for everyone since everyone is unique. When you first start journeying through time, ask to be shown pleasant past life images so you can master the process. I wish you well on your journeys to the inner worlds. I suggest you may wish to record the exercise this way allowing you to go down in a meditative state.

Annielise Stone March 15^th 2010

Diary of the Inner Child part 2 or in other words continuing the Journey of Self Acceptance by Annielise Stone 09 02 2010

I want this post to be a support and I want you to support it because if these remarks fit you just how many of us needs to work not necessarily on becoming super models but more and ground balance humans who can accept that you can make a difference

I first started this post last month when felt that the the winter blues had finally set in or was it the fact it was realised that the jeans you had brought just before Christmas now you cant even get one leg in let alone done up. That’s one of the great things about the cold weather you can hide under the jumpers and coat and woolly hats and pretend you have on loads of layers to hide the Christmas binge.

True there are those wonderful adverts saying do this and and in two weeks you can have a figure like mine. Plus here its too blooming cold to want to A exercise and B eat salad.

Now I do realize that not every country in the world is living in winter. I myself lived in New Zealand for 3 years and the summer months are the UK winter months which can get a little confusing at times. It is easier to want to eat less when you’re not cold.

Back to the plot the quick fixes don’t work neither, do the diets unless you have the time, will, power and determination to make it a career. All of you know someone who no matter what they eat never puts on a pound and others who look at chocolate and gain five pound. Have we all got to suffer and self loath ourselves just to fit the perfect mould.

Who says we have to be thin and who says what is redeemed to be fat a Uk size 10 to 12 was small and 14 to 16 medium anything bigger was large but that’s ok too because of height stature but now days its all about if your not a size 6 to 8 then your not in the in crowd. And anything over a size 12 and your huge. The catwalk models are beautiful women in their own right but also a woman should have curves and be proud of them.

What ever your size pressure is going to make you smaller because that is the image that is readily promoted today.

I want to help everyone take a second look at their inner child listen to what makes them happy balance out and find the middle ground. Heal the need to be something your not.

Years ago when Hollywood actors and actresses were on our screens it was black and white they had little gadgets and the films were made on budgets with most of them doing their own stunts. If you look back on the archives you will see people with big noses sticky out ears and laughter lines no boltox or computers to cleverly cover up the lumps and bumps. If one had a spot you saw it. Everyone knows the famous Christmas Song White Christmas Bing Crosby he had a large nose and big ears but that did not stop him doing what he loved best.

Owen Wilson is well known and popular Actor he has had his own issues with life and even being famous does have its draw backs. One of the important things was he does not have a perfect face he has charm but his nose is not perfect but its not immediately apparent that he has plastic surgery to improve its looks.

I again am trying to find ways to let you know what’s inside will effect how you act on the outside. For some people it won’t matter what they do to the outside they will still see that insecurity on the inside. It could be due to the fact of

Life conditioning from others emotional bullying, family issues relationship issues and even for some past life issues.

As this blog develops I want to look at ways to help heal that inner child for some it may be just a simple healing a visit back to the place inside and making peace.

Perhaps looking at a mediation to acknowledge and start the progress to recovery.

Annielise Stone Feb 2010

Day I think its Saturday Date January.

I cant remember they all feel the same.

Effort lost the plot reason to many to list and God why me?

The outer body or visible image we show the world is not always the true picture. We all walk around shielding our problems and fears and then wonder why they turn round and bite us.

The pressure to be a certain look the perfect weight and the ideal Head Girl/Boy follows all from childhood.

Do we all get to that point where we feel we deserve our fate?

How many have tried the Gok fix and failed. The how to look good naked and if I have a big bum don’t wear stripes. I am not criticising the programmes that trys to help with self esteem. For some lucky few this may be a short term fix and like the eating the last chocolate in the box and the feeling sick the attention, the intention soon disappears when the up keep is totally impossible on a budget and that includes time and motion.

Like a room that freshly painted it soon starts to mark and chip if you don’t keep it clean, tidy and untouched. That’s the point up keep of our bodies and lifestyles are so totally consuming it no wonder we often fail at the first post.

Lettuce anyone with a sense of humour will probably have seen Matt Lucas play Marjorie Doors who constantly takes pleasure from taking the Mickey out of others who again suffer with weight and self esteem issues. Ok its funny and yes us all need some light refreshment and those of you who again, watched the Telly when the famous PG monkeys on it will remember the phrase “Thank you most kindly Madam”. So you see I do have a sense of humour too!

My point is that Lettuce and Dust, for some people who are so desperate to fit in to make the mould to be in the in crowd are usually so sick of it that every day, adverts and images only adds to a sad soul and adds to depression and self loathing.

How many of you out there have spent nearly all their life trying to be perfect. Well sorry it aint just going to happen Fact. Unless you win the lottery and even then, the hours of painful surgery and diets and exercise leave you with an outer shell that looks what perfect and then define it. What is perfect for each of us it would be different.

They say beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder but what happens when what we see is not what we feel, hurt just doesn’t go away it needs understanding love encouragement and lots and lots of attention. So this inner child surfaces.

Why because this where it all starts even from that first day at school when some decides you fit the mould that your in with the In Crowd. You can see it almost in an instance even as early as the first mother and toddler group and you don’t have to be an expert to spot it.

Now another point is does the history of the mother’s inner child follow the child’s inner child are we set up to fail even before we start.

Simple you can fix the outside to look a certain way but that fix can soon become empty just like the purse runs out of money. Just like the hair cut that needs to be done every few weeks along with the colour and then what happens you get home from the experts and then guess what it never looks the same.

Now that is a statement its true and I can speak for all of you. Even a hairdresser cant do her own hair as all of us that tried to cut our own fringe in the mirror will know.

This is a long blog and I am not even half way through to get your attention first I want to realise that the human race has flaws its not perfect and very few people are content with their lot.

There is always going to be someone more Clever, better looking, thinner, younger, talented, smarter nicer, richer, healthy the list is endless

There is always going to be someone who is faster than you who wins everything from the girl to job and the car.

They say that like attracts like and I have seen it yet, when I speak to those people they too in turn complain that they haven’t got it easy and have flaws too.

What do they do, they hide it. Yet they still seem to win the first prize in the raffle and walk away with a gift they did not need and probably did not even want. They just cant help themselves.

To have a style and image takes work and lots of it. It’s a 24 hour a day 365 days a year and for most people it impossible.

A comparison would be an athlete training for the Olympics only to come last and then not only having to face your coach, family friends and country. You have to face yourself and say I failed. What is failure surely the fact he got there was important. But to Whom.

I say you may feel that you have failed today but you have not failed tomorrow you still have a choice and that is what makes us different from animals. A squirrel who spends the spring and summer collecting food for the winter know that if he don’t get enough food he go hungry and starve he might be lucky and get the odd left over but it’s his responsibility.

You may be thinking what has all this got to do with my inner child. First and foremost if you don’t love wants on the inside it don’t matter how much you change yourself the outside may look different to everyone else but it stays the same for you.

If you feel sad on the inside you can hide it for so long but it will surface and depression will set in. The factors are numerous and each point can have a completely different trigger. I once picked up a book it said 300 reasons to be depressed I thought great I could read this and find a few more.

Even different types of medication can improve or even make the conditions worse. Then there is the Season condition where the lack of sunlight and bright colours makes us feel like cr…p.

Yep the good old weather does make or break our day. So proven there are probably more happy contented good looking people in the shinny countries then in a place when it pees down with rain wind and hail 70% of the time. Yet another, reason to make us feel that the world and its army are against us.

So I have come to the part where how do we deal with it?

What you may ask if I have spent money on the outside why is the inside not happy, why I have suddenly not become this perfect person they told I could be. I have watched all the films I have read all the books I have spent hours eating lettuce and starving myself and looking at web pages of chocolate cake and drooling at the images on screen and yet I still have put on weight.  For What ! to find that I am just as UN happy, just as miserable and I am just as fed up and I still feel sh…

I have the gym membership but instead of feeling motivated I feel deflated I braved it once then the local stick insect came along with the perfect body the perfect hair style and the perfect job waltz in speaks a very loud voice to the instructor “Can we work on our stomach”! mines such a problem area and you look at them think what the …… get real. So motivation goes out of the window you reach for the chocolate or the large glass of wine and wonder what next is to come months of staving yourself to get into those perfect jeans to find in one mouthful of chocolate its caused the flood gates to open tears frustration hatred self loathing.

The punishment begins you get up the next morning and relate to Dawn French as you find you not only fallen of the wagon but you have also ate the wagon train itself. The face looks like a kids’ join the dots page and you can’t even get your bum into old favourites let alone anything half reasonable that you can wear to the supermarket you decide do you fake an illness or can you phone in and say that Granny lost her cat.

The fact is the plot has gone, the effort has gone and your back looking and wondering why you. What did you do to deserve this? They said things would change if you stayed on track and yet you’re back to square one.

I can say that self love is the first steps to recovery it don’t happen overnight and you will fall off the band wagon regularly. I know I have seen it there are no quick fixes and even the tightest knickers still can only hid the lumps and bumps on the outside.

On the outside you may have reached the perfect size * but on the inside you still feel 4 times bigger and your waiting for this little gremlin to tell you I told you so I told you your not……………………………… and the list goes on.

This post is not just about weight its about you and the fears and worries put on you by others, who in your life time took great pleasure at taunting, you putting, you down and making you feel worthless.

I want this post to be a support and I want you to support it because if these remarks fit you just how many of us needs to work not necessarily on becoming super models but more and ground balance humans who can accept that you can make a difference.

I plan to write more on this subject and some ideas on how we can help take you forward and the start of the journey to heal your inner child

Annielise Stone International Medium January 23^rd 2010